I was watching "Project Runway" the other night, and this designer who won in the 501 Jean design competition started getting teary. So our hostess with the mostest, Heidi Klum, asks him what's going on, and he stammers out something like this, "This is such a roller coaster. Do I suck? Do I not suck? It's just a crazy ride." And designer Michael Kors said, "And it never ends."
I was stunned. It's the same in designing as it is in writing? Are all creative people stuck on this wild ride? "Jane, stop this crazy thing!" (For you youngins, that's a reference to the Jetsons." Working in the creative field feels like such a battle some days. You love it, you hate it. You fight every inch of the way to get the idea on paper into a cohesive story while juggling everything else in life. Then, you battle editing and marketing and distribution and it really is that daily question...do I suck? Do I not suck?
Wouldn't it be great if we could just dwell in the fact that we're worthy in God's eyes? Well, sure it would, but I'm a girl and what I really want is this incredible Bottega Veneta handbag and even though I should know better, and I shouldn't covet and blah blah blah. I still want the stinkin' supple leather!!! I want my work to matter. And for me, this is measured by Italian leather. Sue me. I'm shallow. But please, let me be shallow with a great handbag.
Okay, the picture is an aye aye -- a relative of the lemur. We used to have some at the SF Zoo, but they're gone now. Anyway, can you look at this thing and not laugh? We need this kind of presence on a Monday morning.