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Friday, May 12, 2006

I am Kristin Billerbeck and I am a perfectionist. Okay, not in areas that would actually help me (like worrying about a clean house, or baking the perfect Mom cookies) No, I am a perfectionist of the worst sort. I never do things "right" and then I tend to beat myself up about it. For example, I bought this gorgeous Persian rug on Tuesday. I LOVE it, but it doesn't have the right colors in it, and I had to take down the painting, and I'll have to make other changes to the room because the rug isn't "right". Which automatically makes other things "wrong".

So I either live with the changes, or I admit I did it "wrong" and take it back. Which is probably what I should do, but like a child I've become attached to the beauty of the rug, and now my mind goes back and forth. The rug is wrong. The rug is beautiful. How can I full enjoy the rug with this brain of mine? And is life ever really perfect? Granted, the rug is a symptom of a bigger issue, but there it is.
Kristin Billerbeck  
posted at 10:36 AM  
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At 10:50 AM, Blogger Diann Hunt said...

I say the rug stays. It IS gorgeous. But then I'm not a perfectionist, so I probably wouldn't care if it didn't match the painting. LOL!

Well, okay, maybe I would care a little. Or not, depending upon how much I like the painting.

Painting? Rug? Painting? Rug? I'm bad at making decisions, can you tell? Can't handle the pressure. I'm going for coffee.

At 11:22 AM, Blogger Julie Carobini said...

Yes, I love the rug too!

And if I had a nickel for every time I did the same thing...:-)

Long live the Color Blind!

At 12:37 PM, Blogger Jaime said...

You know, this reminds me of an Oprah show where they remade a room on a "budget" and centralized it around one theme - it was so beautiful and then Oprah goes "and this was all done on a budget! Beautiful things can be created on a budget, ladies! and this budget was ..." she turns expectantly to the designer who screams out in pure joy "only ten-thousand dollars!!" Needless to say, i stuck my foot through the tv screen.

So ... I say get creative on a REAL budget, but keep the carpet. What better excuse to shake things up a bit and redecorate.

At 12:41 PM, Blogger Deborah Raney said...

Can't you find something--a centerpiece maybe--that would tie the rug and the painting together? Do they have a common color? I'm NOT a perfectionist and I don't think I have a very good eye for color, but my decorating mantra is "if I love it, I'll make it work." : ) The rug is gorgeous and I love the dining set too.

At 12:52 PM, Blogger Ane Mulligan said...

Hey, Kristen--many a room has had its inspiration point the rug. Like Deb said, find a common color between the painting and the rug. Most Persian rugs are multicolored. Then go buy some silk flowers and make yourself an arrangement to tie it all together!

And if it doesn't QUITE work -- don't worry. Just tell everyone it DOES match. After all, you're a fiction writer!

At 1:00 PM, Blogger Kristin Billerbeck said...

Great comments you gals! I rolled up the rug, because everytime I look at it, I see "wrong" instead of how beautiful it is. Like I said, it's a freakish thing that is only a symptom, but at the cost of my beautiful rug. LOL

At 8:29 PM, Blogger eileen said...

Unfurl the rug! I demand you enjoy the colors and design. Hang the painting you love, too. Eclectic is in! Haven't you heard they're coming back with Harvest Gold appliances?

At 6:42 PM, Anonymous HolyMama! said...

very, very pretty rug!

my rug is perfect because i bought it cheap at an auction and it was so old and splotchy, i knew i'd never worry when the kids made a mess on it.

At 11:04 PM, Blogger Kristin Billerbeck said...

Update: I took the rug back today and the poor Iranian men tried to find me something right, but alas, they're going to their brother's shop in Walnut Creek to see if they have the right thing. I took a sample of the curtains and left it with them. Luckily, I'm a good customer. LOL But the rug I bought I just loved. I wanted to keep it anyway, but again, my perfect thing got in the way. : ) I must not be the only one because the guy looked at me when he showed me another one and said, "She doesn't love it. She'll bring it back." ROFLOL

At 1:49 AM, Blogger WriterDoodles said...

I'm a perfectionist about things like my hair or when I write a comment like this. I will sit for at least ten minutes making sure the spelling and punctuation are correct and then after I post it I'll look at it and find some teeny tiny thing and obsess over it for weeks...this is a problem! Think about it this way: Now you can find a rug that you love and you'll have that added giddy feeling of knowing all is right!!

At 10:59 AM, Blogger Kristin Billerbeck said...

And Writerdoodles, we will never check your punctuation, I promise! : )

At 1:49 PM, Blogger Malia Spencer said...

Happy Mother's Day Colleen, Kristin, Diann and Denise! I hope you have a wonderful day with your families and they spoil you like you deserve. :)

At 12:32 AM, Anonymous HolyMama! said...

i was delighted to see your newest in the book store today! (and yes. of course i bought its hot pink gorgeousness.) my two year old thinks it's his, though, since he got to carry it in the store. it's nowhere to be found, which probably means it's in his room now, and i can't get it without waking him up. gah.

At 1:34 AM, Blogger Kristin Billerbeck said...

Holymama, the kid has good taste! And it does have a cartoon on it! My daughter thinks anything chickish is chick lit now. SO cute. Well, I hope you find the book and enjoy it. Once, my three year old threw a brand new library book about children obeying in the toilet. I thought that was awful to have to schlep back to the library and explain where the book went and its title. And she was SOOOO mean about it.

At 11:32 PM, Blogger Robin Caroll said... mean our decor is supposed to match? Oh mercy me, never come and visit me. You'd go into shock! LOL


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Kristin Billerbeck is a proud Californian, wife, mother of four, and connoisseur of the irrelevant. She writes Christian Chick Lit; where she finds need for most of the useless facts lulling about in her head.

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