Girls Write Out
Friday, July 28, 2006
Isn't it funny how sometimes you feel that God is leading you in one direction, but then everything goes fantasmically wrong in that area, and you can't accomplish what you think He's asking? If I have a major complaint to register with God, it's definitely that. I feel for Moses, wandering around the desert for 40 years, no GPS system in sight, and actually leading people with no destination. Can you imagine what he was thinking? "God, did you NOT send me out here? The point of this, is?" And I'm sure Miriam could be a little barky, "Moses, where did God say to go? This doesn't look like the way. Can you stop and ask directions?"

I know you fellow writers can understand this, because we often feel so called to write, but then writing becomes impossible. We lack time, resources, a publisher --you name it. And it makes you wonder if you actually heard the calling right.

I'm in that place right now. You know, the crazy place, where you think, okay, maybe I didn't hear that right. I feel called back to the Bay Area with all my being, but then, every roadblock on earth has been thrown at us. Okay, wait, maybe it hasn't, but that's not a challenge, God. We've got enough. Someday, all of this will make a great book -- the question is, will I live to tell it? ; )
Kristin Billerbeck  
posted at 1:12 PM  
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At 1:25 PM, Blogger Sally said...

Wow! That's so much how I feel right now, too. Except I feel very confident that God wants us to make the change he's calling us to make (moving from sunny smoggy CA to the land of Oz -- yes, I do mean Kansas), BUT, He's either having a little fun with us, or he's trying to teach me some lesson that I'm just not catching.

I think God is leading us to make this change, but He's trying to teach us something along the way...that's why the roadblocks show up. We're supposed to become stronger followers of Christ by figuring out how to get past the trials.

Unfortunately, all we feel is the added stress and the doubts about what is going on!

I hope I can look back on this time in my life in about 5 years and say, "Ah ha! I get it!!"

At 1:59 PM, Blogger Cara Putman said...

One thing I'm learning is that some of these lessons that I'm sure are repeats (Haven't I got that yet, God?!?!) are really Him removing another layer. In some areas I have more layers than a giant onion! I can't wait to graduate from some of these on-going, continuing education classes He has me in and move to the other side. Until then, I keep asking the questions: Are you sure, God? Am I hearing You right? Because as long as I am, I pray my heart's in the right place and that everything else will eventually line up. A girl can hope!

At 2:18 PM, Blogger eileen said...

Ooohhh! Been there and have the T-shirt from several places! Will continue to pray for wisdom and guidance! (and a closer Starbucks)

At 3:18 PM, Blogger Kristin Billerbeck said...

You girls are so wonderful. It is so true that we keep taking the same lessons, isn't it? Clearly, we haven't quite learned. Which only ticks me off more. LOL But God is good, and I have to remember that. He will protect me from myself. : ) Or...I'll do it again. LOL

At 7:38 PM, Blogger Southern-fried Fiction said...

I hate that! I want detour signs, traffic lights and a good map. Funny, I once wrote a script about that. Called it De Tour. Teh point was God didn't promise us a detour around the problems, he only primised us a Tour Guide through them.

I'm praying you'll feel the presence of your Tour Guide and follow Him, Kris.

At 7:47 PM, Blogger Malia Spencer said...

It helps to know I'm not the only one struggling with trying to find my place.

I guess I'll just keep getting a layer at a time pealed and when He's ready He'll provide the healing I need.

In the meantime here's to Starbucks. Good thing there's one at the conference hotel. :)

At 11:03 PM, Blogger Jaime Wright said...

I'm just burying my head in a grande soy hazelnut latte with an extra shot and pretending it's all just going to go away ...

just found out we're moving to the outskirts of Chicago. I'm a mountain biking, woodsy, BMW (Burly Mountain Woman) ... asking me to live within spitting distance of Chicago - well, I'd rather go to Africa.

Kristin ... I'm going to write my OWN book with my mountain man in it and bury my head in that while sipping caffiene and pretending skyscrapers are a figment of our imagination! :)

At 12:23 AM, Blogger Kristin Billerbeck said...

Jaime, you go girl! NO offense, but you can keep your hairy men. LOL Malia, you are young to have weathered so many detours, God must have something great planned! On a happy note, I'm hoping to get a rental this weekend, my kids are in their old school and something is actually working. I'm telling you, I'm sort of afraid to walk under anything at the moment.

I drink to you girls! (Americano!) My friend with cancer, just emailed me and sounded sort of lost in the email and signed it, Whatever. On drugs. I thought, you know, he's sounding pretty peaceful. Hmmm. Kidding!

At 4:29 AM, Blogger Malia Spencer said...

Wohoo for a rental! How close is the nearest Starbucks? Hopefully within walking distance. That would be primo Kristin real estate. :)

At 10:27 AM, Blogger Winter Peck said...

I'm actually going through a phase in my life that requires me to be separated from my hubby while he's off at war. Sometimes I honestly wonder what God has planned in this.

I'm alone in a place where we have no family, but He's provided me with tons of friends and two churches to support me.

I've also began to get the feeling that this is where He wants us to stay, which puts me a a good place writing wise. I have access to people and places that I didn't get when we lived in Iowa.

BTW Jamie! There are great places not too far from Chicago where you can go hiking and spend all day in the woods! I know, I live near 'em!

At 12:49 PM, Blogger Kayla said...


But one of my dreams has been fulfilled :) I have always wanted to read an Ashley book on the beach, and I finally did! I read She's Out of Control on Cocoa Beach on Thursday.

God has planted so many dreams and much wisdom into my stepdad, but there is currently no way to realize those dreams and use that wisdom. He's getting so frustrated and he's wanting to sell his business and quit altogether. It's a tough situation, definitely. It makes you question your faith and whether God is truly leading you. Faith is tough.

At 4:55 PM, Blogger Jaime Wright said...

YEAH! U just made my day!!! I'll have to get all the info from you sometime on the hiking spots!

At 11:58 PM, Blogger Kristin Billerbeck said...

Winter, I'm so sorry to hear you're separated from hubby for now. My friend whose husband has done two tour of duties in Iraq always has to do a short counseling stint when he gets back to bring him back into the world of family -- much different from what he's used to! I'll pray for his safe return quickly!! Are you a barrel racer?

At 11:37 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I hate it when I go through those times in my life that feel like I'm in a maze. I'm pretty sure I know the way I'm supposed to go, but suddenly there is yet another deadend and I have to retrace a few steps to see which way I should have gone to get to there.
Hang in there - this too shall pass. :) Pretty soon you will be sipping Starbucks (I hate coffee, but LOVE steamers) and saying "remember when..."


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Kristin Billerbeck
Kristin Billerbeck is a proud Californian, wife, mother of four, and connoisseur of the irrelevant. She writes Christian Chick Lit; where she finds need for most of the useless facts lulling about in her head.

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