Girls Write Out
Tuesday, December 09, 2008

Last night Dave's mom called us down around 10 because Dad wouldn't settle down. He wanted to go to the hospital. We got up, got dressed and hurried down to their house. They were both by the front door. Dad pulled me aside and whispered, "Who is that little old lady? I can't do anything to satisfy her." Through the next few minutes we realized:
a. He thought he was very young--just out of school
b. He wanted to go to the hospital because his wife was there.
c. He actually recognized me and Dave--and introduced us to the "little old lady."

Now we had to laugh even though it's heartbreaking and not at all funny in reality but sometimes you have to find the humor in a situation to be able to deal with it. A few minutes later he knew Mom and wondered where the "little old lady" had gone. But it made me think about self-perception. In my head I'm still 19. I'm always shocked when I see a picture or look in the mirror. In my head I'm never as old or as fat as I really am. LOL It also made me wonder what else we deceive ourselves about. Our character? Our personality? Our prowess--or lack thereof of things like cooking,etc? LOL

It's enough to make me long for heaven! This old woman will be 57 in a few weeks. The almost forty years since I've actually been 19 have passed in what seems a blink of the eye. It makes me realize all over again that inner beauty is what it's all about, and I need to be cultivating that more.

How about you? What's your self-image? Any self deception going on with you?

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Colleen Coble  
posted at 7:47 AM  
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At 9:06 AM, Blogger Leslie said...

Colleen - that is so heartbreaking - but its good to find the humor in the situation!

I less than 6 months I'll be 30. Why I am not one of those that think 30 is old or "over the hill" I still really can't imagine myself as 30. Its really, very difficult to imagine.

At 11:57 AM, Blogger Colleen Coble said...

I feel for you, Leslie. I cried all day on my 30th birthday. Isn't that the silliest thing? But that birthday bothered me more than any other in my life so far.

At 12:24 PM, Blogger Megan DiMaria said...

Sorry for the heartbreak you're going through, Colleen. Several years ago when Gma and Gpa were living with their daughter, Gma went to go to bed and then ran out of the room screaming, "There's an old man in my bed!" So I understand completely what you're going through.

As far as age goes, I've been lying up for over a decade now. When I tell people I'm 58 they usually say I look great for my age! Works for me. Ha!

A prisoner of hope,


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Kristin Billerbeck
Kristin Billerbeck is a proud Californian, wife, mother of four, and connoisseur of the irrelevant. She writes Christian Chick Lit; where she finds need for most of the useless facts lulling about in her head.

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