Girls Write Out
Monday, February 28, 2011
I have to admit I was upset with God this past week. On Friday when news came that Di's cancer was back, I felt betrayed. I argued with God saying, "But you led us to Cancer Treatment Center of America. I know you did. And now this?" I railed and cried and was generally a total mess.

Thankfully, God is big enough to love me when I question Him. Our pastor's message on Sunday was about how our happiness on earth is not God's goal. We're on the path to heaven and God is making us more like Christ before we get there. But heaven is our final destination. This life is such a blip on the radar of eternity. And none of us knows which of us is going to get there first. A car accident or something else could take us on home at any moment.

There's a Petra song that I love. The lyrics are below. The part is red is my favorite part and it's a good reminder to me right now that this journey isn't all there is. That we are to expect trouble and heartache because we are pilgrims here. Just because it comes doesn't mean God doesn't love us.

Tomorrow Dave and I are taking Di to Zion, to the Cancer Treatment Center. Pray for her and her family. This is so hard on Jim and the kids. And pray for wisdom for the doctor. I believe that God is allowing this so that we will see His power as He miraculously heals her. :) We've made a pact that whoever gets to heaven first will put a down payment on the mansion next door. And you know what? In light of eternity, that moment when we're reunited with our loved ones will be like a second. My grandparents and my brother are there too. When I get there, they'll say, "Are you here already? I just got here and barely had a chance to look around."

Here's to keeping our sights set on the goal--heaven!

Road To Zion lyrics
There is a way that leads to life, the few that find it never die
Past mountain peaks graced white with snow, the way grows brighter as it goes

There is A road inside of you,inside of me there is one too.
No stumbling pilgrim in the Dark, the road to Zion's in your heart,
the road to Zion's in your heart

The river runs beside the road, it's waters living as they flow,
in liquid voice the water calls, on thirsty knees a pilgrim falls

Sometimes a shadow dark & cold lays like a mist across the road,
but Be encouraged by the sight, where there's a shadow there's the Light
Sometimes it's good to look back down , we've come so far we've gained
such ground but joy is not in where we've been, Joy is Who's waiting at the end

What about you? Have you ever been mad at God? 

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Colleen Coble  
posted at 6:39 PM  
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At 7:09 PM, Blogger Kristin said...

I'm mad at God right now. I know life isn't fair, but it should be fairer than it is. I think about what King David endured in his life, and I remember God has it all planned out and our journeys aren't easy.

But like you said, we could all be hit by a bus tomorrow and we have eternity to plan for, but I'm not ready for any of us to go just yet and so we pray!

I'm glad you and Dave are taking Di. We'll be with you in the car in spirit.

At 7:26 PM, Blogger Denise Hunter said...

Thanks for the reminder, C. I've been having my moments too. God reminded me of when Jesus cried when his earthly friends were hurting. He weeps with us in our pain.

At 8:23 PM, Blogger Hannah Alexander said...

I have to keep reminding myself that God knows better than I do what He's doing. Mel keeps reminding me that getting Diann to the cancer center saved her life last year. Praying for another save.

At 8:34 PM, Blogger jel said...

I like that song :)

y'all will be in my thoughts and prayers !


At 8:51 PM, Blogger Michael Ehret said...

Colleen and Girls

One of my favorite songs, too, C. Praying.

At 9:06 PM, Blogger Christine said...

I've been praying since you posted they found her level was elevated. I was mad at God when my father battled cancer. It took me a while to understand that God never told us not to be angry. He said "be angry and sin not."

I'll pray for your safety as you travel and for wisdom for the doctors.

At 9:06 PM, Blogger Allie Pleiter said...

I remember yelling at God one night when my son was sick on the bathroom floor. I raged to God other children got to spend their summers at the pool or on the playground, not in Chemo. But God said--again--to me that I could not yet see what He was doing. What He has done. God can see around corners. And you're absolutely right--God is far and above large enough to hold all our emotions, even rage. Take care ladies, for you are dearly loved!

At 9:20 PM, Blogger jenness said...

Diann must be so blessed to have you all in her corner. So glad you all are there for her. Will be praying!

At 9:36 PM, Blogger Cara Putman said...

I can so relate, Colleen. But you know what, David vented all his emotions at God and God still called him a man after God's heart. That comforts me. It's okay to acknowledge my emotions to God. He already knows them and then we can start dealing with them. Love you guys.

At 9:58 PM, Blogger Colleen Coble said...

Thanks for the comforting comments, friends. Keep up the prayers. God is big enough to heal Di and I believe he will!

At 10:29 PM, Blogger Timothy Fish said...

Yeah, I've been there. The thing is, our perspective is so limited. We get this image in our heads about how things ought to go and we can't imagine how something could possibly be better. When it doesn't go that way, we feel like our prayers aren't being heard. Someday, we'll all look back and it will all make sense, but now things are just tough.

At 1:11 AM, Blogger Lynette Sowell said...

Yes, definitely, especially when I see the bad roads taken by some loved ones. It has ripped my heart out for more than two years now. There are so many times when I prayed (or yelled), "What as the point, Lord, of honoring You and being a steward of two lives You've blessed me with caring for, to have their paths come to this?" I have no answer still, but God is healing and life is still going on...praying for y'all, especially Diane and family...

At 6:38 AM, Blogger Kayleen said...

I'm so sorry to hear of her setback. But I've known people who have battled cancer repeatedly and overcame it. I pray that will be the case and that God will prepare everyone's lives for His will. It's a struggle handing over that control of our happiness, but as someone said, His goal is to make us complete. Knowing the purpose of Life-- to please Him -- is worth more than happiness which is temporal.

At 7:14 AM, Blogger Tonya Kappes said...

I think we all get mad and question God's actions. But I do know that it's all planned and we might not know why but he will reveal why he's using Di. She is very lucky to have great friends like the gals here.

At 9:28 AM, Blogger Diann Hunt said...

Boy, you all sure know how to make me cry!!! I am so humbled that you would offer prayers on my behalf. Life is busy these days, so I don't take it lightly.

We don't always understand why things happen like they do, but I don't doubt for a minute that God is in control, He loves us, He sees what's happening, and He takes every step with us. That's good enough for me. (Pain-free steps would be good.) ;-)

My favorite quote these days is a Beth Moore quote. She says one day we will, "zip out of these bodies, and with health and vitality, step into the life we were saved to live." WOW!!

Now, I'm not saying I'm going there just yet, but I'm saying when it comes for each of us, it will be a glorious day. It's what we've lived for here.

And for the record, I don't know what I would do without the Girls Write Out Team. Their friendship is amazing, and I know there is nothing they wouldn't do for me and vice versa. I am blessed, so very blessed!

Enjoy your gift of today.

At 11:07 AM, Blogger Jaime said...

Love to you Diann! With Coffee, Chocolate, and God - ALL things are possible. :)
Many prayers for God's amazing grace and as I say to Chloe every night before she goes sleepies: Jesus watch over you, Jesus will take care of you.

At 11:09 AM, Blogger Alejandra said...

This is a season in my life that I just feel mad at God. I read an article by John Piper called It is Never Right to be Angry with God, and it has helped me realize it not a healthy attitude but that is something that I need to overcome.

At 12:23 PM, Blogger Anna Bella said...

I think that God understands when we yell and when we are angry. As long as when we are done yelling we know that it is not his fault, god makes the BEST person to vent to.

At 12:23 PM, Blogger Anna Bella said...

Thanks for writing!

At 12:38 PM, Blogger Chris Jager - Baker Book House-fiction buyer said...

i think the maddest I ever was at God was when my Daughter's cancer came back. She had three little girls and when her husband came to pick them up after her surgery. I watched them huddled together at the foot of our stairs. I just had no idea what he had planned and why would this be part of his plan.

Praying for Di, God does have her in the palm of his hand.

At 1:40 PM, Blogger Kristin said...

Colleen, you have reduced me to tears.
"...our happiness on earth is not God's goal."
Knowing Him, putting Him on display is.
I think you and Diann are doing a class act job. ;)
Standing in the gap for you all.

At 6:32 PM, Blogger Pam S. said...

Praying for you, Diann and Colleen.

At 11:46 AM, Blogger Liz Flaherty said...

You've all said everything so well. My prayers are still with you, Diann, and thanks to all posters for giving my faith a shot in the arm.

At 2:00 PM, Blogger Peg Brantley said...

If tears are prayers, you are all getting a double-dose.


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Kristin Billerbeck is a proud Californian, wife, mother of four, and connoisseur of the irrelevant. She writes Christian Chick Lit; where she finds need for most of the useless facts lulling about in her head.

Colleen Coble

Colleen Coble writes romantic suspense with a strong atmospheric element. A lovable animal of some kind--usually a dog--always populates her novels. She can be bribed with DeBrand mocha truffles.

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Denise Hunter writes women's fiction and love stories with a strong emotional element. Her husband says he provides her with all her romantic material, but Denise insists a good imagination helps too.

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Diann Hunt writes romantic comedy and humorous women's fiction. She has been happily married forever, loves her family, chocolate, her friends, chocolate, her dog, and well, chocolate.

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Cheryl Hodde writes romantic medical suspense under the pen name of Hannah Alexander, using all the input she can get from her husband, Mel, for the medical expertise. For fun she hikes and reads. Out of guilt, she rescues discarded cats. She and Mel are presently taking orders from four pampered strays.

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