Girls Write Out
Thursday, May 19, 2011
I haven't mentioned much about Mel's struggle with burnout, but when you're an ER doc and your hours are switched around against your will and you have to battle drug seekers--who go out on the street and sell those drugs for a living--you burn out fast. Mel has been talking to God about that lately, and his bitterness is getting to him.

I commiserate. I worry about him, and pray that God will give him a break, but lately I'm not as gentle with God as I used to be. We're tired, overwhelmed, disgusted quite often.

Have you ever said something to God and then braced yourself for the lightning to blast you dead? Yeah, well, we've both been there a lot lately. So that's why we were doubly touched by God's gentleness and tender dealings with us.

Two days ago, Mel called me as he always does when he got off work and told me about some of his day. Of course, he never betrays patient confidentiality, but he told me about one young woman who recognized his name when he walked into the exam room. "You're Dr. Hodde?" she asked. "You don't remember me, do you? You saved my life when I was nine. You diagnosed my colon cancer." She hugged him and thanked him again for saving her life.

When he told me about it, I cried. I was so touched. "Honey," I said, "you know God sent her to do that, don't you?" He admitted I was right.

I've found God does that often. When we're at our worst, upset, hurting, burning out, and crying out to Him about it--even when we don't speak with the respect He so abundantly deserves--He answers us with gentleness, with encouragement, with a little taste of the impact our suffering is making on the world.

How about you? Have there been any times when you felt God was going to deal with you harshly, and yet His gentleness touched you in a life-changing way? Share if you care to. I so enjoy hearing about how God touches lives.

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Hannah Alexander  
posted at 11:45 PM  
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At 12:24 AM, Blogger j peine said...

Definitely! It's so easy to get discouraged and unsettled with the current events, and the moral decline of our world. I comfort myself by reminding "me" that I'm not supposed to feel "connected" with this side of heaven. If I get too comfy here, I can't be seeing the world through Jesus' eyes. So burn-out for a Child of God is actually a good thing; an impetus to awaken our complacency and ignite a longing for HOME. That feeling can stoke our fires in passion for Him and unleash the boldness He seeks from all of His kids! I had that feeling at 50 when my first and only grandchild was born. I didn't LIKE this world he was being brought into, so I prayed for God to send someone to make it better, and He reminded me that He did...2000 years you act like HIM! So I quit yapping about how badly things were going and decided to invest in the next generation. I took our retirement funds and started writing Children's books for Jesus! A MOM on a mission! It's still the same place, but the difference is I AM different, empowered by my "call to action" and content that I am doing what I can with what He has bestowed on me to make it a better place. Since I've been on this path, the frustration is less, and the blessings abundant. Hope this makes you both feel better, and you're right...God did send her to remind your hubby that there is a lot wrong with our world, but those devoted to Him are doing what they can, when they can to make it better for others. Blessings.

At 2:52 AM, Blogger Ruthie said...

When I surprisingly don't become a "crispy critter" because God has sent the lightening down on me, I am reminded that He's big enough to love me just as I am. After all, He made me human, knowing I would have a sinful nature, and yet also knowing that He loved me so much that He gave me His precious Son Jesus to keep me going in those tough times. When I am crying to Him about my latest trial, He is already moving on my behalf. Sometimes I see it and am blessed, as Mel and you were, and sometimes not. Often it's just the quiet comforting of the Holy Spirit that gets me through my day. The circumstances don't necessarily change and I may still struggle, but I discover that I am not alone, that the Holy Spirit is with me in my struggles and will help me get through them.

I will pray for both you and Mel. My DH and I have been where you two's not an easy place. I will pray for peace, comfort, and, most of all, wisdom.

At 9:03 AM, Blogger Sandie said...

You need not look far to see God's faithfulness. On a community basis our area has not had a lot of rain for some time and the ground is dry. Because of this the expected flooding may not have as great an impact as it could have - tho bad enough. Not making light of what some are going through. We are ok here.

In the past, two incidents come to mind where it was clearly a God thing. We were strapped financially and our car needed repair and I needed dental work. We went to the car place and instead of the huge bill expected they charged us a very small fee. I went to dentist (a fine Christian man) and he charged me only $15. Even the receptionist asked him to repeat it. lol I had not given him any indications of hardship. It was clearly God.

At 9:47 AM, Blogger jel said...

thanks for writting this post.

after this morning!

ya know u2 are always in my thoughts and prayers

At 3:02 PM, Blogger Jackie S. said...

I am glad the lady thanked Mel, and that God used her!! I can imagine Mel is in a tough place, and I pray God's blessing on him 'cause know he does a great job!
Blessings on you, too, Cheryl.

At 4:16 PM, Blogger Hannah Alexander said...

Thank you, j peine! What a wonderful impetus to start writing--to try to make the world a better place for a child. And this world is not our true home. There's better to come.

Ruthie, bless you for your prayers. I know we've all been there at some time or other. It's so affirming to be able to share encouragement with one another. Thank you.

Sandie, that's a wonderful reminder. I have occasionally received the money before I needed it, which was a little disappointing when I found out I'd have to spend it on unexpected bills, but still, God provides, doesn't He?

At 4:18 PM, Blogger Hannah Alexander said...

jel, did you get deluged this morning? Thanks for your thoughts and prayers. I did have my stress test at the hospital this morning. Should have results next week. It was a routine...somewhat long and boring...procedure.

Thank you, Jackie. Yes, Mel puts his whole heart into his job, and that's often difficult. He puts his whole heart into our marriage, and I hope he feels as loved.

At 6:02 PM, Blogger jel said...

yup we got and still getting some rain, had alot of lighting and thunder too!

take care

At 11:34 PM, Blogger celestemc said...

What an awesome reminder!

When I found out that my 13 yr old daughter's cancer was terminal, I can't say that anger, burnout, discouragement even come close to describing my emotions.

I vividly remember brushing my teeth one day - staring blankly into the mirror. The "why?" questions were going out in my prayers. "Why Lord, Why?" I was more numb than anything.

When He answered it was sweet, calming and peaceful. "So that you may know Me more."

The more I pondered it, the more I understood.

He knew my pain. He willingly went through it when He sent His only son to die.

It was a reminder that there isn't anything that I am faced with that He hasn't endured. I am reminded of those suffering in other countries, brutalized, murdered, neglected....

And I have to simply trust that He knows - and He will carry us, the weak and the weary through.

At 11:58 PM, Blogger Hannah Alexander said...

celestemc, there is no comparison for a parent going through the loss of a child. Only God can give peace through that. I have a friend who wrote How to Help a Grieving Friend. It's a short book with fabulous information. I'd like to be able to give a copy to everyone in the world.


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Kristin Billerbeck
Kristin Billerbeck is a proud Californian, wife, mother of four, and connoisseur of the irrelevant. She writes Christian Chick Lit; where she finds need for most of the useless facts lulling about in her head.

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Colleen Coble writes romantic suspense with a strong atmospheric element. A lovable animal of some kind--usually a dog--always populates her novels. She can be bribed with DeBrand mocha truffles.

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Cheryl Hodde writes romantic medical suspense under the pen name of Hannah Alexander, using all the input she can get from her husband, Mel, for the medical expertise. For fun she hikes and reads. Out of guilt, she rescues discarded cats. She and Mel are presently taking orders from four pampered strays.

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