Girls Write Out
Sunday, September 10, 2006

Little serious today, sorry gang. David Crowder has a song called "You're Everything". Here's just a few verses:

If I could just feel You're touch Could I be free?
Why do You shine so? Can a blind man see?
Why do You call? Do You beckon me?
Can the dear hear the voice of love?
Would You have me come?Can the cripple run?
Are You the one?...
Heal my limbs
Then joyfully I'll run to You

This morning, writing in my prayer journal, here's what I wrote:
I need a sabbatical.
I need a break.
I cannot finish this book.
I cannot finish out this contract.
I'm too burdened, Lord. It's too much.
Do you notice a recurring theme? Me, me, me, me, me...

In recent years, I have been blind from multiple sclerosis. I have been unable to walk well and had to be driven, had to have nannies help me with the daily activities to be a mother. Here's the thing. God did heal the blind. God did heal my limbs. It's not like this healing happened to someone else! And yet, here I am in a complete lack of faith that He is sufficient. That I'm doing any of this on my own power, anyway!

He doesn't promise me a best-seller. He doesn't expect perfection. Only obedience, that's all we can do. But dang, we're a hard-headed lot. But I can run to him -- joyfully.

"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness."
2 Corinthians 12:9
Kristin Billerbeck  
posted at 6:32 PM  
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At 9:27 PM, Anonymous Robin Lee Hatcher said...

Amen, Kristin. And thanks for the reminder. I've been feeling overwhelmed by life and deadlines. But God is greater. I just need to show up and "do the work" as 1 Chronicles 28:20 tells me.


At 9:54 PM, Blogger eileen said...

The Lord is faithful to all His promises. Ps 145:13

I promise.

At 10:28 PM, Blogger R.G. said...

Ah, Kristen, isn't it lovely when we come up against our frail, forgetful humanness? Yes, his grace is sufficient. We all know that. But why is it so easy to forget in the tough times?

Hang in there. Through Christ you can do all things. And if if helps at all, I'm enjoying A Girl's Best Friend right now!

P.S. Love David Crowder. Get to see him in concert with Third Day this Friday -- woohoo!

At 10:57 PM, Blogger Tina said...

"... for my power is made perfect in weakness." That's my favorite part of that verse. At least your good attitude about your MS and your healing is a testament that you don't have a TOTAL lack of faith. Recently my husband participated in a bike ride for MS and we had the opportunity to meet quite a few people who were reminder of the power in that verse.

At 9:30 AM, Blogger Kristy Dykes said...

You're so transparent. That's what I love about your writing, Kristen. It makes a person say, "Oh, I'm feeling that, too." Thanks for sharing, thanks for blessing us today. Kristy Dykes

At 9:51 AM, Anonymous Kelly Killen said...

Kristen- Thanks for your words today! I am have been having some problems recently and trying to take care of them on my own! I heard somewhere someone say, can't quite remember, we are always saying "OH LORD why me?" when something bad happens but we never say it when something good happens! I will be praying for you, keep strong!

At 10:36 AM, Blogger allen said...

I was sharing with an agnostic friend of mine all of the problems that I was going through, job loss, family health, money vanishing faster than I could bring it in...she asked if I was upset with my God because of all the *crap* he was dumping on me and my family. I told her that life was the dumper, not God. God was the one pulling me and my family out of the poo. God never fails...ever. But sometimes He sure is quiet about what He's up to...

At 12:25 PM, Blogger Trish Ryan said...

I had a similar reminder on Sunday, as I sat in church absolutely fuming at the woman in front of me - her twitching and shifting was making me bananas. Then I started hating myself for being so unloving, which is always helpful. After a few minutes of this, I sensed Jesus saying, "Um, Trish - you don't make yourself loving. I make you loving. All you have to do is let me." Oh. Yeah. Jesus. Thank God he does the heavy lifting, because I'm pretty hopeless on my own!

At 12:50 PM, Blogger Kristin Billerbeck said...

Thanks for all the great comments, gang. I am staying on track today and my beloved GRANDPA is coming into town to visit his 96 year old sister!! (he's 90!) I better get this right, I may have a long way to go! Life looks better in the arms of Grandpa, even at 40!

At 3:59 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Amen -
I was broken in church yesterday and realized that too often I try to do everything my own way. What a relief to surrender. It makes me wonder why it takes me so long to learn my lessons.
And I've often thought the Isrealites were idiots to wander for 40 year -- had no idea I do the same thing on a daily basis.

At 4:36 PM, Blogger Heather said...

I had no idea what all you'd been through. How blessed you are that God healed you.

We get so caught up in this life, what things go right/wrong, that we often find ourselves leaving God out of the picture. Or putting him in this little box of what we think he can/will do . . .when we know that our almighty God can and does do so much more than we could ever imagine.

Thanks for reminding me of this today.

At 5:41 PM, Anonymous Audra said...

I needed to read this today. Lord, forgive me for forgetting that it's all about you not me. Help me to remember that you are enough no matter what the circumstances.
It sounds like you have an amazing testimony, Kristin. I'd love to hear it sometime.

At 5:42 PM, Anonymous Audra said...

I forgot to mention: cute picture. :)

At 7:56 PM, Blogger Ane Mulligan said...

You aren't alone, Kristin. Almost seventeen years ago, God raised me from the dead. And yet ... like you I sometimes find myself forgetting to pray, forgetting to ask for His help ... forgetting Him in the tyranny of the urgent.

And yet, He loves me still. That's grace.

At 2:53 AM, Blogger Camy Tang said...

Love that song. It's one of my favs from that album.

At 6:03 AM, Blogger Heather Ivester said...

I just finished reading Calm, Cool, and Adjusted and found Poppy's views on healthy living and her faith so inspiring. Wish I could invite her over for a visit -- so she could share some of that healthy green stuff she drinks.

Thanks for hanging in there with your deadlines -- it's worth it for us readers! :)


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Kristin Billerbeck is a proud Californian, wife, mother of four, and connoisseur of the irrelevant. She writes Christian Chick Lit; where she finds need for most of the useless facts lulling about in her head.

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